A Journal about Dieting, Exercising and Love.

Will resume jogging/running next week.

I forgot to say it. I’m still exercising, though. Just dancing inside the house, doing stretching, jumping jacks, and sit-ups. I also have a jump rope here at home. I’m still trying to condition my body to run again. :)

I’m not giving up on myself.

I knew that losing weight would be hard. I know that there are a lot of shortcuts, but I won’t do it. I’m not going to punish my body just because I feel fat. :)

fitness-blonde asked:

You did NOT fail. You made a mistake. You noted the mistake and you made a plan to change it. Failing is making that mistake and giving up. Believe it or not, a lot of people make the mistake of not eatting before working out because they feel fine at the moment and are too zoned in on the workout to remember that they did not eat. I respect that you stated your mistake and made a plan to fix it. Its a mistake, not a fail.

Thanks for this. :) I’m still continuing the journey. I’m not giving up. :) Your blog has been really helpful. Thank you :)

Day 3 and Day 4

I forgot to go online, and I forgot what I did for those two days. @.@

Anyway, I do remember making a salad for day 3. I ate normal food for the rest of the day (in moderation, of course).


  • Romaine lettuce
  • Tomatoes
  • Cucumber
  • White Onion 
  • Tuna (canned in water)
  • Lemon
  • Olive Oil
  • Sweetener


  • Dice tomatoes, cucumber, and white onion.
  • Heat up the canned tuna on a pan. Add a pinch of salt. Remove water.
  • Squeeze out the juice from 1 medium sized lemon. Add 1-2 teaspoons of olive oil. Add sweetener to taste.
  • Put everything into a bowl. Serve.

Day 2: Summary

No food post for today, here’s why:

I did something stupid. I woke up early because I needed to enlist for my classes next term. Slots for each class are very limited, so you can imagine how stressful it is even when it’s done online. Right after I enlisted, I fell asleep. I woke up at around 2 pm. I was chatting with my schoolmates, trying to find people who I share common classes with. Come 4 pm, I decided to go to school for a jog. I left the apartment at 6 pm and start to jog my way to school.

As I entered the gates, I remembered that the only thing I ate for the date was a banana and a single serving of string cheese. I tried to access if I can make it despite having an empty stomach. I honestly felt fine at that time, I didn’t feel hungry nor tired. Also, the jogging route inside school is roughly 3 km long. It was a short distance, so I decided to go for it.

Bad idea. Really bad idea. Halfway through the jog, I felt dizzy. I seriously thought I was going to faint. I was lucky that there was a shed up ahead that I could rest in. It was around 5-10 meters away from me. It was the slowest-paced and hardest 5-10 meters walk of my life.

I felt nauseous. I had the urge to vomit, so I did. However, nothing but saliva and water came out because I didn’t eat anything. I’m not sure how long I stayed there resting. But the minute I felt better, I tried walking home. A few steps after the shed, I decided to look at the time. It was almost 7. Usually, a full jog following the route would take about 20-30 minutes. I haven’t even finished half of it. :|

I tried walking the remainder off, and felt that I was okay. So I decided to walk another round following the route. I didn’t even bother to try jogging until I was almost at the end. Even until after a few meters of jogging, I’d feel dizzy. After that second round, I decided to go home.

I ate dinner after the exercise. I bought Korean beef from a store downstairs. I already ate, drank lots of water, took a shower, etc. But I’m still dizzy as hell.

Lesson learned: Don’t go out for a run if you haven’t eaten all day. You may not feel the effect now, but you will. Oh, trust me, you will.

I’m going to condition myself first before I run again. And this time, I’ll make sure I have something in my stomach.

Here’s to failing day number 2. Oh, well. You win some, you lose some. Not losing hope because of this.

Day 1: Summary

Weight: 150 lbs
Waist: 36 in
Hips: 40 in

10:00 AM

I woke up late (around 9am) and I was lazy to make breakfast. But skipping breakfast is bad, so I opted for an easy solution: cereal!

When I eat, I always end up eating fast because I only concentrate on the food. I end up doing less of chewing and more of swallowing. So for my diet, I will always remind myself to chew my food properly.

For breakfast, I ate slower because I was doing this blog post while eating. It took me around 30-40 minutes to finish eating breakfast, better compared to the usual 10 minutes for just a bowl of cereal.

Last night, I told myself that I’ll walk around the school grounds, slowly making my way up to a jog/run. However, since I woke up late, it was already too hot to take a walk outside. I decided to reschedule my walk later in the evening, starting at dusk.

I can’t cook at the moment because I forgot to buy meat. For today, I’ll probably order takeout for lunch. Definitely not fast food, though. There are a lot of local eating places here that serve healthy food. I’m lucky.

1:30 PM

Cream Dory for lunch. Takeout from a local eating place. Status: Fail. I mean, the Cream Dory was delicious and all. But I’ve never really paid attention to how buttery it was, that is, until now. I’m probably not going to order takeout anytime soon. Thinking of making salad for dinner. Good thing I still have a bottle of olive oil left. :)

10:00 PM

My exercise for today: doing chores. By the time I finished, it was already 7pm. I also did a few jumping jacks and sit ups. I’m still trying to build up my endurance. I took a brisk walk to the grocery today. I bought stuff for my lunch tomorrow. I was with my roommates, we ate out. I had shawarma. I was soooo full. Doing extra exercises tomorrow.

As for the food, I don’t know the calorie count for these. For this diet, I won’t count calories. I do believe that there’s a certain amount of discipline that you will need for a successful fitness program. However, I don’t like the feeling of being too restricted. My form of discipline is choosing the right kind of food, staying away from unhealthy ones. Also, maintaining a healthy exercise regimen.